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Sun Aug 17, 2008, 4:49 PM
  • Mood: Distressed
  • Listening to: crushcrushcrush by Paramore
  • Playing: Solitaire
Yes, the title is an English song. My mom has been making me listen to English music more often lately, and I've found that I actually like the songs that Paramore has. Who would've though, huh? ^^;
Anyways, this is a very emotional journal for me... I'm going to cry myself to sleep tonight. Do you want to know why? Of course you don't. Am I going to tell you anyways? Of course I am.
I got an e-mail today from the e-mail address of one of my best friends EVAR, but the person who actually sent me the e-mail wasn't my friend: it was her older [real-life] sister. This older sister is someone who I really don't like, and she doesn't like me either; we share an obvious hatred for each other, and we don't bother hiding it. Back in February, we agreed to not talk to each other again unless her younger sister (my friend) was incapable of talking to me herself. The fact that I got a message from the older sister should've given me the idea that something had happened to my friend.
It turns out that my friend died yesterday.
This isn't something that I ever wanted to happen, especially not the day before school starts. It will take me a while to feel better about this. I already have a headache from crying so much, and I'll probably cry more tonight and tomorrow. I just hope that doesn't happen during class; I don't want my teachers to think I'm a problem. =( That wouldn't be very good, would it?
On another [now obvious] note, I'm starting school tomorrow. I have my class schedule, but I don't feel like posting it right now. I'm still really upset about my friend right now. I might post it when I post the first part of ISFT--which, by the way, due to my currant state, will be delayed until I somewhat recover myself.
I'm so sorry about this, I really am. I just needed to write about my feelings, and having someone cheer me up just a little will make me feel a lot better. =)

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Mood: Tearful ~ChocolateCherii Aug 17, 2008, 5:39:19 PM
ohmygod :cry: your friend died?! awwwww *hugs you* is this someone I know too?

I'd probably feel the same if Bri died or something D: WAIT! GET THAT IMAGE OUT OF MY HEAD!!!! T_T
okay sorry, that was bad of me D: death is just one of those things that likes to linger around my head, and it really makes me sad.

by the way, I think paramore is a good band :)

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*dj-Mara Aug 17, 2008, 7:57:47 PM
oh no, you poor girl T~T
i'm really feeling for you. time will heal these wounds. live a really good life for her and yourself, ok?
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~KitsyLove Aug 18, 2008, 4:11:07 AM
Omg,that's not fun to hear!I'm so sorry to hear that.:(

It's really sad when you lose a really good friend,if that happened to me,at first,I wouldn't really realise it until it litterally hits me in the face.Then the more I would think of it,the more I want to cry,and eventually,I will.And that will take a while to stop.

I really,really hope you're going to feel better soon,take your time to recover from this horribly bad news.Know that I(and others) are here for you.:)

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~evanescencely Aug 18, 2008, 7:44:39 AM
aw, im so sorry about your friend! i really hope you feel better soon.

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~Shadow-Mage-Luna Aug 18, 2008, 2:57:14 PM
Thanks. I'm feeling a lot better already. =)

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~Shadow-Mage-Luna Aug 18, 2008, 3:00:36 PM
I was really sad too, especially when I actually realized that she was gone. =( But I'm feeling better already, to the point when I'm not crying now (which wouldn't be good anyways, because I'm now officially in school again) unless I'm reminded of it. I'm still upset and a little lonely for obvious reasons, but I'm recovering quickly enough because I have all of my other friends with me still, and they probably will stay with me long enough to get me through this. =) Thanks. :hug:

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~Shadow-Mage-Luna Aug 18, 2008, 3:04:16 PM
Nooo, Bri didn't die... obviously not, since you saw her today--well, I saw her, anyways. xD; Death makes me sad too, especially when it's someone who I know that's died. This was very depressing for me, as I've already said many times. =( That's good. I'm glad you 'approve' of them. =P
Did you already read my birthday party invitation? :? Can you come or not? You don't have to call the numbers on the invitation; it's fine to just call my cell phone number. =)

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:sing: What is this overflowing emotion that can cross over time and capture me? Where now are those people to whom gentleness suits the corners of their eyes? :sing:

~Continued Story, Code Geass~
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~Shadow-Mage-Luna Aug 18, 2008, 3:05:20 PM
Yeah, I'm already feeling much better; my friends from school have cheered me up without even realizing it. xD :hug:

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:sing: What is this overflowing emotion that can cross over time and capture me? Where now are those people to whom gentleness suits the corners of their eyes? :sing:

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~shamanprincess30 Aug 19, 2008, 6:10:08 PM
Well then, good buddy, welcome to the club. I guess we're not the lucky ones, but maybe we are.
Just let out your feelings when you need to, or else it'll make you choke. I remember I was practically suffocating and gagging at my sister's funeral. I was dead silent. This was the case until I got out and got some fresh air. The rest of the time there was much more tolerable.

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